t is for tamoxifen

Today is not only the first day with tamoxifen in my system, it is also six months since I received that phone call saying I had breast cancer.

An anniversary, another milestone, a new step forward.   Lordy, must some days be so emotionally stacked?

I enter into Tamoxifen with trepidation and some fears.  When I brought the bottle home, I sat it on the dining room table and stared at it a couple of hours.

Like it was a  pint-sized Pandora’s box.  But the alternative is unacceptable.

I will tell you that I took it at 12:02 a.m. (couldn’t sleep) and that a little while ago I had a hot flash.  They had stopped a month out of radiation which was October 13th, 2011.

Overnight the weather has changed to the cool crisp of fall and leaves turned.

And oh yes, I received a Groupon for Botox.   Thanks, I will pass on that.

And so it begins, people.  Today, six months ago I was really, really scared and facing great unknowns.  Today I have a lot of that behind me and am starting the next five years.  May God be good to me and a thank you for giving me the strength to be positive and to have gotten this far.

I am bigger than this circumstance. My thoughts will take me to a place of peace. I speak calm and oneness. I am a champion and my victory is already on the horizon. My love for life anchors me in safety. My thoughts will take me to a place of peace.

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About carla

Writer, blogger, photographer, breast cancer survivor. I write about whatever strikes my fancy as I meander through life.
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  1. Pingback: playing doctor with tamoxifen | ihavebreastcancerblog

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