I am just cranky. It’s raining (again) and I am so tired I can barely think. I am also in a state of sore and red and hot to the touch skin.
I hate it. This does hurt. See photo below (the derelict farm building I photographed this weekend merely looks as worn out as I feel…). You will notice what looks like a black mole. It’s not, it’s a radiation tattoo. I actually responded to a HARO query from a reporter doing a story on radiation tattoos. But because I was not flipping out about the dots I imagine that is why I never heard a thing .
I don’t know if you can see the red bumpy rash but I hope you call all see how RED this is. in this case, red=sore and I also get shooting pains through the breast right now. All perfectly normal even if it feels like crapola.
The tired thing is really stunning to me still. I am trying to take care of myself and I still can’t believe how tired I am.
Dr. Weiss says I am doing well, so I can’t imagine what not doing well is truthfully. Five more to go seems like it will take forever.
And I must harp on the whole femininity issue. This stuff just does it to you.
A final word is a shout out to random people who ask me if I can get pregnant since I have had radiation. Seriously? Not only is it really none of your business, the truth is that ship sailed a long time ago. I can’t have kids. If you need to know the burning response to that question I suggest asking a radiation oncologist.