One of my friends took me on a beauty excursion early last evening and I came back with new hair. After my negative salon experience earlier this summer I had given up on the hair thing. I had not had my hair cut since March I think. It was so nice and I loved the stylist. She has such a following I might not get an appointment for at least a couple of months, but wow she is amazing. I think she fit me in as a favor to my friend and I am very grateful – I needed to feel girly for lack of a better term, even if I am so g.d. tired.
While I was there I met another customer who has a friend who is about a three-year breast cancer survivor. What a cool woman and her friend did the brave thing and opted for a double mastectomy and chose to not have reconstruction. This lady’s friend has been on tamoxifen for a couple of years now and the only side effect I could discern was occasional moodiness. So that was helpful.
What I realized however, is that I do not know if it is temporary or permanent, but radiation has changed the texture of my hair. I love the cut incidentally, but the rest of me is just tired. So yes today you finally get to see who scribbles up here, and I apologize in advance as to how tired and solemn I look.
I am just beat. The photo is not in color because I don’t feel like looking at me looking at me off my blog and looking at the darn rash. I am also sore.
I made the executive decision to take a couple of days off. I have been a trooper and worked throughout this whole process and have had no vacation. So I am giving myself a mini-break. Because I do not get vacation or sick days I will have to make the time up later in the month (rabbit,rabbit it’s September 1st by the way), but I need a break. I can’t ignore the signals my body is sending me. I am exhausted. And when you are THAT tired that it is even inhibiting your ability to sleep right and you feel like crying for no reason – it’s time to take time for yourself even if you aren’t going through breast cancer treatment. I can’t stay positive if I am this tired. I refuse to lose that.
Ok kids time to go pulverize spinach into my morning shake. Then off to rads. Then I am taking a nap.