I was wading through the sea of what referrals I need for surgery, what codes, blah,blah,blah and a woman in my surgeon’s office said “do you have a cardiologist?”
Uhhh no because I have never had any heart issues…well apparently I might??? Fabulous.
The EKG shows something called an “anterior infarct” and now to add to my list of motherfuckingpainintheassthingstodo I need cardiology clearance and oh yes… a cardiologist.
OK my stress is definitely ramped up now and given the nature of hospital systems, I can’t talk to someone directly, I need to leave a message.
Ok God? You up there? It’s me , not Margaret. Really? Really? I need a break.
I don’t need this on top of everything else. I do not need layers of stress on stress.
I just want to get better with as little drama as possible.
Is that too much to ask?
I am grateful if I have an issue and it is discovered NOW and not at some other point, but wow….I need to breathe
UPDATE: Someone from my primary’s office called back and she will see me tomorrow afternoon. I said to the nurse, “you do understand I have breast cancer and I have surgery scheduled and come hell or high water no farting around I will have this mass out on schedule and I will get cardiac clearance and the surgeon is adamant on this. I do not have the time to fuck around with this nor the temperament. I don’t need medical clash of the titans I need a game plan and fast movement and no bullshit. If I come in tomorrow ideally I want to go then to cardiology. If this is stress related I need to minimize it NOT make it glow”
We’ll see what happens. I mean this could mean I have a murmur or something bad or nothing at all. But I do not need my wallet sucked dry and my stress levels rendered impossible while trying to fight cancer.
After all I have a plan damn it….and a life…I hate bullshit