seeking inner calm

Ok so yes, I have to get to the “heart” of it all today and I am anxious.  Maybe this happens, but since I am but a newbie to the land of breast cancer and surgery please bear with me.  That lovely man of mine, my friends and family have been troopers to put up with my stress camp the past 24 hours. And I am all stressed about this still because I am still not into cardio.  At my site. Don’t they get that I am trying not to stress out about this?  Sending me from pillar to post is not helpful…I am trying to be the patient patient and it’s still not working so well today…

My breast surgeon and my other OB/GYN have both checked in.  These women are truly amazing and I will be forever indebted to my OB/GYN who said “we have to really look at this lump. I can’t take that kind of risk with you.”  And the ladies of my surgeons office? They are getting used to the hurricane on the phone that I can be. And I love my nurse navigator.  All these voices on the end of the phone and they are just so nice.

I have my referral in for my surgery too.  So save the heart, it’s all falling into place.  And I like the place and the person who will be leading my radiation.

It’s just that this is not only surreal but a real time eater.  Hours just fly by.   I have been reading other breast cancer women’s blogs.  As I discover them, or they me, check the links column to the right of the posts.

I am in this crazy sisterhood for real.    My inner calm is almost back. May it stay with me the entire day.

Oh I have yet another writing project I started.  I have not linked it here yet, the two are separate.  What do you think?  Should I be really brave, have a total coming out party and link them up?  Have a read here and let me know your thoughts.  Maybe I am being silly but since that ex of mine used to dismiss all my writing as self-aggrandizement sometimes that voice pops into my head.  Realistically I know his sniping came from the fact he didn’t have it in him to take pen to paper as they say.

I also got a tip to read a blog called Onco Girl – read it – it’s amazing.

About carla

Writer, blogger, photographer, breast cancer survivor. I write about whatever strikes my fancy as I meander through life.
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2 Responses to seeking inner calm

  1. I enjoy reading your blog. You are doing a great job handling all the chaos. Keep up the writing too! It helps you and others at the same time.

    Glad to see you have a great support system. If you don’t mind me asking, when is your surgery?

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